The
biggest problem with being handcuffed to L is that Raito needs a lot
more sleep than L does. Or rather, nobody in the world needs as little
sleep as L.
L shows a surprising amount of what looks like
sympathy, but Raito knows is the result of a complex equation where x
equals the average amount of sleep Raito claims to need and y is how
many creamers L has drank like shots that night and z is how many times
Misa has interrupted them to rub herself against Raito, and it all
equals how many hours of consecutive Kira-hunting can occur before
Raito begins to 'accidentally' catch the handcuff chain under the
wheels of his chair.
"Please sleep when you need to,
Yagami-kun," L had said. "The bed is large enough that there is plenty
of room, and I will bring the laptop."
When L was building this
headquarters, Raito wonders if he planned the size of his bed with a
moment like this in mind, and is more than moderately sure that he had.
He wonders how L brought this facet of his plan up with his father.
What
is most bizarre is how normal it all seems after a few days of
adjusting, but then again after showering while handcuffed to another
boy while your father and his friends watch via closed-circuit
television, falling asleep to the clacking of L's laptop keys is not
that hard a sell.
What's really strange is when Raito wakes up
in the middle of the night and the keys are not clacking, and he turns
his head to find L sprawled out and comatose.
It's surprising
how tall L is when not contorted into one of his collapsed postures, as
if his body is ignoring bone structure and gravity to decompress while
it has the chance. The wild hair, the dark smudges under his eyes,
without the flaying intensity of his stare L looks almost like the
exhausted teenager he is. Or might be.
Raito wonders how long
it will take him to start looking like L, and thinks that maybe he
should just give up now and succumb, or at least start going barefoot
because it looks pleasant to scrunch your toes in the carpet.
Would going barefoot and scrunching his toes in the carpet raise or
lower L's percentage of certainty about whether he is Kira?
"Seventeen
point oh percent," L mumbles in his sleep, and Raito narrows his eyes.
He's still nettled by the insight of L asking whether Raito would chose
to give up the Kira power, nettled that it has pretty much solidified
Raito's suspicion that a good deal of his recent memories have been
either altered or fabricated entirely, and L's apparent ability to read
Raito's mind even while unconscious is not improving his mood.
Something
is wrong here. Raito has felt out of step with L for days, as if he is
operating under a different set of data, as if he is part of the
investigative team instead of being ahead of it, where L is.
Raito
hates it. Something is wrong, something is missing, and
Raito is going to...
"Raito-kun
is grinding his teeth," L murmurs, and Raito looks down at L, who has
been watching him. He has in fact been grinding his teeth. Does Kira
grind his teeth? Raito unclenches his jaw.
"Just thinking," he
answers, but L is already asleep again, maybe asleep, and Raito thinks
about pinching himself to see if he is dreaming but suspects his psyche
isn't tortured enough yet to come up with something as ridiculous as L.
Raito is going to do nothing, except for grind his teeth and
maybe scrunch his toes in the carpet although the jury is still out on
that, because L might be a scholiatic sociopath, but he isn't stupid.