He didn't
usually sleep with the Puzzle, rolling over onto a gold pyramid in the
middle of the night wasn't his idea of a good time, but tonight he let
go with one hand long enough to flip the chain over his head and
snuggled down under his covers with the Puzzle firmly tucked in his
arms.
Closing his eyes, Yugi willed himself into
half-consciousness, and when he opened his eyes again, he was in the
bed of his Soul Room. The toy-filled room calmed him usually, but
tonight the light seemed dim and the shadows of the stuffed animals and
objects scattered around the room seemed creepy and menacing.
Yugi clutched the Puzzle tighter and slid from bed, picking his way
carefully across the room in his bare feet. A Lego between the toes,
even one that was a metaphysical construct, was never pleasant. At last
he reached the door and pushed it open.
The hallway outside
was the same as ever, torches flickering along the wall and stone floor
cold against Yugi's feet. Yugi crossed the hallway and opened the
doorway across from his own, revealing the labyrinth that existed
inside his mind. Without hesitating, Yugi let the door swing shut
behind him and began to trot down the nearest staircase.
He
didn't linger to explore the maze as he sometimes did, but instead
headed straight for the true room of the other person sharing his mind.
The twists and turns of the labyrinth didn't phase him, even though
they were never the same; Yugi had the feel of the maze, and was in no
mood at the moment to play games with it.
The door Yugi
finally stopped in front was no different from any of the others, but
when Yugi pushed on it, the eye of Horus glimmered faintly on it before
it swung open. When he crossed the threshold, the stone beneath his
feet changed from the smooth, cool stone to rougher sandstone, slightly
warm as though it had been in the sun.
This room was dim too,
low-burning oil lamps casting flickering shadows across the scattered
pieces of wood furniture and glinting across the carvings that
decorated them. The darkness didn't seem eerie to Yugi in this place,
though; his shoulders unknotted a bit as he shuffled across the room
towards the bed, where a tangle of sheets rose and fell in time to soft
breaths.
The mound of sheets stirred as Yugi drew closer, and
long fingers came up to push sleep-mussed bangs back from half-closed
eyes.
"Partner?" Yami asked, raising up a little on one arm. "Is something
wrong?"
Yugi bit his lip, suddenly feeling like a stupid little kid for waking
up Yami because he'd had a nightmare. He almost retreated, but just the
thought of going back to his room alone pushed him a step closer to the
warmth of Yami's bed.
"Sorry," Yugi said miserably. "I just…"
"Come here." Yami slumped back down against his pillows and beckoned
Yugi over. Yugi took the last half dozen steps at a jog and scrambled
up onto the bed before he even thought about what he was doing. He
stopped himself just short of throwing himself into Yami's arms and
blushed. Yami reached up to brush fingers across Yugi's cheek, which
just made them burn hotter.
"Nightmare," Yugi finally said,
refusing to lift his eyes from where his fingers were twisted around
his Puzzle. "Since we destroyed the Pyramid of Light,
sometimes…" Yugi trailed off. His eyes wandered far enough to
see that Yami was wearing pajama pants that matched his, but no shirt,
and his own Puzzle's chain was tangled around his neck, but the Puzzle
itself was someplace over his shoulder. He still refused to meet Yami's
eyes.
"Tell me, other I." Yami spoke gently, but the command was there all
the same.
"It was so easy to break," Yugi murmured, shivering. "I dream someone
breaks the Millennium Puzzle, blows it apart like the Pyramid, and
then…then I'm alone."
Yami tugged Yugi forward, and he
didn't resist, collapsing forward and winding arms around Yami's neck
and throwing a leg over his hip, and Yami didn't seem to mind when
Yugi's Puzzle caught between them and all its sharp points dug into his
chest.
"The Millennium Puzzle has lasted for five thousand
years," Yami pointed out, lips brushing Yugi's scalp. "I think it will
yet be here for quite some time."
Yugi nodded, feeling silly
again, but tightened his grip and buried his face against the warm skin
of Yami's throat. Suddenly, fingers were on his chin, and Yugi thought
Yami was prying him off, but instead they merely tilted his face up
until warm lips brushed his own.
It wasn't the first time
Yami had kissed Yugi, not by a long shot, but it was different when
their legs were tangled together and Yami leaned over to press Yugi
just a little more firmly into his bed. When he pulled back, something
lurked in his eyes that made Yugi shiver before Yami's expression
smoothed.
"Stay if you like," he murmured. "Only…"
Yami pushed Yugi away a few inches, enough to let the Millennium Puzzle
slip free and reveal several corners etched in red on Yami's chest.
Yugi flushed yet again.
Chest rumbling with mild amusement,
Yami ran sure hands over Yugi, turning him over onto his side and
tugging him close, so that when he wrapped arms around him again,
Yugi's back rested against his chest and the Puzzle was safely out of
jabbing range. With Yami's hand splayed possessively across his
sternum, Yugi finally felt some of the tension slip away from him.
Yami dropped off again immediately, but Yugi stayed awake for some time
even after he relaxed, knowing that once he feel asleep, he would
either rematerialize in his own Soul Room, or would wake in the real
world. He wanted to stay awhile with Yami, who pressed closer and
sighed against the back of Yugi's neck when Yugi ran fingers up his
bare arm.
His skin was so warm, Yugi thought, and smooth, and
suddenly Yugi wanted to touch it with his own skin instead of the
pajama shirt. Even as he had the thought, Yugi felt himself grow warm
from embarrassment, as well as something else he didn't examine very
closely. Once he had the thought, however, he couldn't bring it back
under control, fighting to keep from wriggling as he imagined the heat
from Yami soaking into him without anything in the way.
After
another few minutes, Yugi cautiously whispered Yami's name. When that
got no response, he took a deep breath, then willed the pajama shirt
away. Handy things, metaphysical constructs.
"Ooh." He
couldn’t keep back the soft whimper as Yami's slow breaths made
glorious inches of their skin slide against each other. Yami didn't
wake, but his grip on Yugi tightened, and Yugi thought he felt lips
press against the back of his neck.
Yugi still had no idea
what it all meant when he finally did surrender to sleep some time
later, but he hoarded the memory of Yami's skin against his own deep in
his heart, and watched carefully for the flicker in Yami's eyes when he
thought Yugi wasn't looking.
******
"Damn," Malik grumbled, scooping up his pile of glass stones. "You win
again."
"Play again?" Ryou grinned at him from across the Mancala board. "He
says you're getting better."
"Your stupid yami doesn't want me to quit so he can keep on
slaughtering me," Malik retorted, letting his stones tumble out of his
hand into the Mancala pit. He gave the wood board a little shove to the
side. "Besides, mine keeps getting distracted by the shiny things and I
can't focus. Play Yugi for awhile."
Yugi sat up a little from
where he was sprawled on the floor and straightened the board out
between himself and Ryou before starting to distribute the stones into
the pits.
"He wants to know if he's playing you or the other you," Ryou said.
"Don't tell him," Malik warned.
"Me," Yugi shrugged. "Something about the clinking of the stones
relaxes mine, knocks him right out."
"Shouldn't've told him," Ryou said. He paused for a second. "He says
you could've kept him guessing about your strategy." Another pause.
"Now he's going to crush your little pointy head." Another pause, then
Ryou shook his head. "I'm not repeating that."
Yugi laughed and scooped up a handful of stones out of his last pit to
take his turn.
"Not repeating that either," Ryou murmured as he leaned over to take
his own turn.
"You shouldn't," Malik started as Yugi picked up another batch of
stones, but then his eyes glazed a little, "uh…shouldn't
do…I mean, that's what I did."
"Having some trouble with
your Millennium Personality Disorder?" Ryou inquired, considering for a
moment before choosing his stones.
"Shut up," Malik snapped,
"just…just shut your damn…your damn mouth…you
don't…don't know what…you…oh for fuck's sake!"
Malik reached out and seized one of the shiny glass stones. He held up
so that it caught the light, then flung his hand out to the side with
it, as far away from his face as possible. He shook his head a little
and his expression cleared.
"Finally," he grumbled. "Can't get a moment's…what are you two
staring at?"
"Nothing," Ryou snickered, bending his head back over the Mancala
board. He and Yugi caught eyes and both snickered again.
"Like this never happens to you," Malik sniffed. "I know about you and
that mp3 player, Moto."
"He's got a thing for emo," Yugi shrugged. "Bad Luck's new album'll
keep him occupied for a good half hour."
"I jerk off," Ryou said.
There was a moment of silence.
"What?" Yugi asked, hand frozen in the air still clutching stones.
Malik let out a titter.
"Jerk off." Ryou repeated. "You know, wanking? Masturbation? Polishing
the knob? Waxing the--"
"We know what it is!" Yugi exclaimed, face bright red. He dropped his
stones into the succession of pits hurriedly.
"Doesn't work on mine." Malik shook his head sadly. "Sex just makes him
all possessive and…woogly."
"Mine's good for nothing but a nap after." Ryou jingled his handful of
stones and rolled his eyes a little. "Don't argue, you know it's true.
Woogly?"
"Wait," Yugi interrupted, blushing even harder if that
were possible. "Are you telling me that you…you…with your
yamis?"
"You don't?" Malik blinked.
"No!" Yugi exclaimed. Ryou and Malik exchanged a conspiratorial glance.
"But…isn't that weird?"
"We've had ours a lot longer than you," Ryou pointed out, as Yugi
scooped up a batch of stones without really looking. "Pay attention or
he's going to have you in a couple turns."
"Since before
puberty," Malik agreed. "Besides, he's me anyway, right? One morning we
woke up and he said 'what the hell is that' and then we did some
hands-on research that Isis says is perfectly normal."
"One of
my schools had Sexual Education," Ryou said, running a hand through his
hair ruefully. "They told us that sex was bad and masturbation killed
kittens, and he was so pissed off he seduced me out of spite. Well,
except for the part about killing kittens, he did like that."
"Oh," Yugi mumbled. He stared down at the game he was most definitely
losing now. "You just…did it?"
"Why?" Malik sidled a little closer. "Do you want to…do it?" He
gave a little leer.
"Don't tease the little virgin," Ryou reached over and poked Malik in
the side. Malik twitched and the stone he'd been distracting Marik with
slipped out of his hand and rolled across the floor.
"Now you've done…" Malik blinked several times.
"You've…uh…"
"Yugi," Ryou and Yugi turned away from their exasperated friend, "is
something going on with you and the other you? And he says just take
your turn already."
"No, nothing," Yugi said quickly. He chewed
his bottom lip as he picked a batch of stones and began dropping them.
The clinking was soothing, he had to admit, and he spoke without
meaning to. "It's just that sometimes I…never mind."
"You wouldn't mind if it did?" Ryou pried. The last stone slipped out
of Yugi's stiffening fingers and hit the carpet. Malik pounced on it.
Yugi was blushing furiously again. "Yugi, we've just told you that we
both do, it's okay to say if you want. We won't say anything." Ryou
eyed a patch of air slightly to his right. "You keep quiet."
Yugi gave another sigh as Ryou finished trouncing him quite thoroughly
and reported that Bakura said "Ha ha, take that, and also ha".
"Sometimes," Yugi murmured as they were dividing up the stones again,
"he kisses me, and I think he might…I mean, he gives me this
look when he thinks I'm not looking, and it makes me
all…all…"
"Woogly?" Malik asked with a victorious grin, making Ryou snort.
"Yeah," Yugi admitted, shrugging. "So do you think I should…"
"That's horrible." Ryou wrinkled his nose. "But mine's got a point.
Sort of. In the sense that he used both you and the other you in the
same sentence along with the phrase 'at the same time'." Yugi looked
slightly traumatized. "What I mean is, you should just tell him. I bet
he wants the same thing."
"And even if he doesn't," Malik
added, "there's no reason you couldn't have hot sex anyway. Mine gets
testy if it's been more than twelve hours, god only knows what he'd
fuck if he'd been stewing in his own juices for five thousand years."
"That's totally not what the Millennium Rod is for, you pervert." Ryou
rubbed his temples. Yugi twitched.
"I'm not so sure about this," Yugi said, looking down at his hands.
"He lives in your head," Ryou pointed out. "You aren't keeping any
secrets from each other, trust me."
"You're suffering in a needlessly chaste fashion," Malik added. "You
need to seize the day! Or the other you, at least."
"Even if I wanted to," Yugi mumbled, cheeks flaming, "I don't have any
idea what to do."
"See, there we can help you."
Yugi swallowed nervously as he realized that Malik's hair had a few
more spikes than usual, and Ryou's smile was way too pointy.
******
After all of Ryou and Malik's advice, Yugi had avoided Yami for a few
days, wanting time to think. As much as one could avoid a spirit
sharing a mind with oneself, which really meant that if Yugi wasn't at
school or doing something for his grandfather, he was hanging out in
his soul room.
He had noticed something strange, since he had
been spending such an inordinate amount of time in the room: some of
the toys had disappeared. Yugi was so preoccupied with this that he
forgot he was avoiding Yami, and when the Millennium spirit knocked on
his door, Yugi told him to come in without thinking.
"Yami,
have you noticed that some of the…" Yugi glanced over at Yami,
who was smiling affectionately at him, and the words suddenly died on
his tongue. He glanced back down again, fighting down a blush.
"Is something wrong, partner?" Yami asked, coming over to sit beside
Yugi on his soul room's bed. Yugi kicked his feet a little and didn't
look up. "What were you going to ask me?"
"The…" Yugi cleared his throat. "The toys, some of them are
gone."
"Oh?" Yami glanced around the room, which was filled top to bottom with
toys, and raised an eyebrow. "How can you tell?"
"It's my soul room," Yugi pointed out. "Do things ever disappear from
yours?"
"No, not that I have noticed." Yami was silent for a moment before he
said, "Perhaps the room is changing because you are."
"Changing?" Yugi furrowed his brow and looked up at Yami, forgetting
about his embarrassment. Yami lifted a hand to ruffle Yugi's hair.
"Aibou, have you truly not noticed?" Yami chuckled. "You've been
growing up. Small wonder, with everything we've been through. You don't
believe me?" he asked when Yugi still looked skeptical. "What were you
talking to Ryou and Malik about?"
Yugi's jaw dropped. "You heard that?"
"Some of it," Yami admitted, letting his hand fall away from his poor,
flustered hikari. "Enough. Yugi, we share a body, you didn't really
think you were hiding that from me, did you?"
"Why not?" Yugi mumbled, staring at the floor and blushing so hard it
was making him dizzy. "You're hiding how you feel."
"Am I?" Yami slid closer and used a finger to tilt Yugi's chin up.
"Perhaps you just didn't see what I was showing you." Before Yugi could
respond, Yami was kissing him, the same light brush of lips that they
had shared dozens of times.
Only this time was nothing like
those other times, because Yugi was suddenly overcome by the way he
could feel Yami's heartbeat where his fingers pressed against Yugi's
chin, and the way the wave of affection that washed through him left
every nerve ending buzzing in its wake.
"Oh." Yugi's voice was
very soft when Yami pulled away, but then irritation flashed through
him at Yami's knowing smirk. He gave Yami a shove, and when the
startled spirit tumbled backwards onto the bed, Yugi threw a leg over
his waist and bent to kiss him hard.
Minutes later, Yugi was
the one smirking when he lifted his head and found Yami blushing a
little, both of them breathing hard.
"Partner?" Yami asked,
voice rough. He seemed to notice suddenly that his hands were twisted
tightly in the fabric over Yugi's thighs, and loosened his grip a
little.
"You don't know everything," Yugi informed him, then
laughed wickedly at Yami's expression when he wished the pants gone
entirely.