Akira
Touya has had dinner at Shindou's house approximately six hundred
million times, but he never feels any less awkward when he shows up on
the stoop and presses the doorbell. Partially this is because the only
other place Touya has ever been asked to dinner is the Go Center's
annual charity fundraiser. Partially this is because everyone at
Shindou's house wears t-shirts and jeans, and the closest thing Akira
has to casual clothes is the pink sweater that he knows for a fact
Shindou would blow to kingdom come given half a chance. Partially this
because Shindou's mother treats him like a sixteen-year-old boy rather
than a Go prodigy, admonishing him not to spoil his dinner while she
forces fresh-baked cookies upon him, leaving a bewildered Touya with a
crisis of conscience and chocolate-sticky hands.
And that was
all before Shindou kissed him. Now he has no chance of stopping the
raging blush when Mrs. Shindou answers the door and beams down at him,
because surely this woman must know that he has been tempting her son
into defiling Go salons and other unnatural acts.
"Akira, come right in!" Mrs. Shindou waves him inside.
"Thank
you, Shindou-san," Akira murmurs, trailing along after her as he tries
to figure out whether 'Akira' is mother-code for 'you harlot'.
"Dinner
is almost ready," Mrs. Shindou says. "Would you go and get Hikaru? He's
been up in his room for hours, I haven't heard a peep out of him."
"Of course." Touya is glad for the escape, and slips up the stairs
while Shindou's mother returns to the kitchen.
It
strikes him suddenly, as he is going down the upstairs hall, that he
knows where Shindou's room is. It isn't like there's anything untoward
at work, Shindou's goban is in his room, but Touya wonders whether Waya
knows that posters of Honinbo Shusaku and Roy Mustang glare at each
other from opposite walls, whether Ochi has ever seen the towering pile
of mingled kifu collections and back issues of Shounen Jump on the
desk, whether Isumi knows how the waning afternoon light streams across
the bed and illuminates the dust motes drifting over the goban.
As
he lifts his hand to knock on the door, Touya scowls and curses Shindou
for making everything so damn confusing with his stupid 5 shirts and
his messy hair and his soft lips.
The door isn't latched properly, and swings open a little when Touya's
knuckles touch it.
"Shindou?"
Touya asks nervously, leaning in just a little to look, and half
fearing he'll find a scantily-clad Shindou beckoning wontonly from the
Western-style bed. Instead, he finds Shindou sprawled on the floor,
dead asleep with his face pressed into the goban. Half a dozen stones
are on the board, and several more clutched in Shindou's hand, which is
clenched in a fist beside his head. He is shifting a little in his
sleep, and his forehead is creased.
Touya comes into the room
the rest of the way and calls Shindou's name softly. Shindou's fist
clenches tighter and he whimpers a little.
"Shindou," Touya says
again, a little louder, coming close enough to lean over Shindou's
shoulder and see that the stones on the board may have been the opening
moves of a game he hasn't seen before, before Shindou fell on the board
and knocked several askew. Touya kneels down beside Shindou to peer
closer.
"Sorry," Shindou breathes, still asleep, but the furrow
in his brow deepens. His hands flail a little, sending more stones
scattering off the board. "Sorry, don't...don't...Sai..."
Touya
stiffens at the name 'Sai', then reaches out and shakes Shindou's
shoulder firmly. Jerking awake, Shindou sits bolt upright, eyes wide
and the lines of the goban etched into his cheek. He stares at Touya
uncomprehendingly for a moment before flinging arms around him and
burying his face in Touya's chest.
Torn between embarrassment
and shock, Touya does nothing for a moment, but when he realizes that
Shindou is shaking, that he can feel the other boy's heart pounding, he
brings his arms up to lie awkwardly across Shindou's shoulders. The
sounds of Shindou's mother rattling around in the kitchen and the oven
timer going off drift up the stairs.
His ankles are starting
to go pins and needles under the combined weight of himself and
Shindou, and Touya thinks that he should ask about Sai again while
Shindou is unbalanced and might give an open answer, but he finds that
he really doesn't want to talk about Sai right now. Over the
years, Touya has envied Sai, has been amazed by Sai, been frustrated by
Sai, been insanely curious about Sai, but right now Touya hates Sai
with every fibre of his Go-obsessed being because, whoever Sai is, he
has clearly broken Shindou's heart.
Touya's revelation is that
this makes him want to find Sai even more, just so he can break Sai's
skull with a goke, and then that perhaps he has been spending too much
time with Shindou, who has definitely been spending too much time
playing God of War in between matches.
Shindou stirs
and mumbles 'sorry' again as he sits up. The lines of the goban are
starting to fade from his skin, but Touya can still see a star point
etched high on his cheekbone. Reaching up to brush his thumb over the
mark, Touya leans forward and presses a kiss to the corner of Shindou's
eye. When he pulls away, his lips taste of salt.
Shindou's
mouth is hanging open a little, and he is flushed from sleep and
surprise, but then he puts his own hand up to his cheek and feels the
impression of the goban on his skin. When his fingers drift over to the
spot that Touya's lips touched, he grins a little in understanding.
"Komaku,"
he chuckles, and Touya nods with a slight smile. Then he leans in to
kiss Shindou's mouth as well, because leaving the tengen unclaimed
won't do you any good in the endgame.